Englands mental health services is ridic, took me a year to gather the guts up to go see my Dr and she got me a referal where I had to fill out this form talking about my problems, send it off, wait 5 days and then phone this place to get a telephone appointment to be assessed by a therapist. Took me nearly 2 weeks to gather the courage to phone them, made an app for noon on the 30th Jan but they never called me :/ And I’ve brushed it off until now but everything is quickly getting worse and worse to the point where for the first time ever I’m actually scared for myself and I know I need to phone them today and get this sorted but I’m having this (irrational, I know) major fear of being rejected or told it’s too late and I just want it to be all over and done with so I can start feeling normal. Why couldn’t I be scared of heights or something instead of talking on the phone/to strangers. D: And it doesn’t help that my insomnia is back in full swing and uuuuugggghhhhhhh